—Patricia Hickerson, Davis
I didn’t know you in person
nor do I think you had a proper burial
you died at sea, floundering
caught under a ship in the Gulf of Mexico
during a gigantic spill
I saw your great body there, heaving
under the oil-soaked waves
I wept to see my distant animal cousin
fighting to breathe, trapped
like one with lung cancer
cavities filled, no choice, no chance
sink deep …
rest in peace
Thanks, Pat, for the poem. She writes: I was inspired to write the attached poem "Funeral for a Whale" by Joyce Odam's comment [Monday] on Medusa that she was "heartbroken" for the treatment of our animal relatives. See below for more Joyce Odam, as she rounds off last week's Seed of the Week: In the Hollow of Night (people are writing back and forth to each other with a fury in the Kitchen right now—see Joyce's first poem below!).
And see the photo above for our new Seed of the Week: Where there's smoke... Send your smoulderings to email@example.com or P.O. Box 762, Pollock Pines, CA 95726. No deadline on SOWs; go to Calliope's Closet page on the b-board (under the Snake on a Rod) for a plenitude of seeds as we cruise into spring.
MUSIC FROM THE DARK OPENING
—Joyce Odam, Sacramento
(After “Captive to the Song with butterflies…”
Music bursts through the dark opening—
electrical with energy—
hollow with echo—far away music
that is remembered now
where white curtains of air-light shred
and butterflies tremble toward the source.
Sounds widen to match the listening;
the musical Rorschach
alters its form.
The butterflies stay in the same flutter of time.
Time slows to one heartbeat,
holds its breath.
THE NIGHT IS FILLED WITH BARKING DOGS
far away dogs
who start softly
and you don’t really hear them
and then become urgent and
and soon the echoes of night
carry and distort with the
ragged complaint of the dogs
who answer and answer
and the night is hollow
and lets itself fill
with this chorus of telling
when your listening is
you feel the abrupt silence . . .
in unison they have signaled
and the absence hangs suspended
with shuddering echoes
before it swallows back
along the air
back over the miles of city
back to the cocked listening
of the dogs
THE IDEA WAS ALIVE AND IT FRIGHTENED US
Like any childhood ghost story
told over candlelight:
the bones of the face
the eyes burning
with the flame
the pressing forward
as the voice of the story teller
taking on a hollow tone
wavered in a draft
and just when
and just then the pause—
the melodramatic hesitation
of the story—
and then the expected
and the nervous laughter
More, we shouted; more!
I flood the night with my sorrow.
I didn’t mean to say that.
I sleep and wake
the pattern. Now
I am dreaming. Now I am not.
THE NIGHT OF PENETRANT DARK
It is the night of penetrant dark—deep lapses into
sorrow—that old state of being, vague and distant.
How to reach the self?
The mirror does not help—does not know the eyes.
There is no light for the mind which is delving into
known depths for the old deliverance.
The window swallows the night—allows sounds
to magnify—sounds to diminish. There is such
an ache in the universe. Fiction does not allow
one to tamper with reality: one becomes the other,
just as the face becomes the mirror-face, which
becomes the real face, which becomes glass-flesh.
THE WORDS OF NIGHT
Off the edge of my distance I quarrel with light—
all the ribbons of darkness—
to mark the last detail,
before night comes down, before my eyes
must take the words of night into my mind
as one takes any darkness in.
Here is where I yield, as when
the electricity goes off—
even the street lights—
and the signal lights on the corner,
when eyes collect the totality of dark,
and the flashlight must be found,
and the candles.
Here is where distance fails,
and everything becomes
the here and now—the way time is,
and the conception of time—
the conception of space
if all the stars went out.
Haste is what you use here:
the dark is the dark;
light exists somewhere as a possibility,
or a memory—or a release into fear
when one is alone to grope through everything
suddenly dimensionless—like falling.
Torn again, the curtains of night. How many stars
pass through, become dreams, sweet and lonely.
Yet it is bitterness that always claims you—
wanting those second chances to solve.
How loosely life holds you now in its mind-cradle,
lullaby after lullaby, till sleep lets you in.