Saturday, December 07, 2013

Living By Enchantment

Snodgrass Slough
—Poems and Photos by D.R. Wagner, Locke



DARING TO DREAM

Time dared History to dream
But it feared for its many children.

“It’s just a dream,” said Time,
“What could go wrong?”

“I might find places where
You are not,” said History.

“Where might they be?" said Time.

“Do you remember Death?"
Said History.  “He was once
My lover.  He would tell
Me stories, empty spaces
And the void of wars,
Nights without stars
And love that crosses
All ages.  It walked
The corridors with them.”

Time could not speak.
It found a nameless fear,
Hollowed and with an eternity
Rife with recurring memory.

“There was a poem,” said Time.
“It was endless.  They knew
This poem was endless,” said Time.

Then, the poem began and
Time answered fervently.

_____________________

A PALE GEOMETRY

The poem has found a cliff somewhere.
Monsters roam there.  They wrap
Themselves in figured rugs,
Attempt journeys to the realms of queens,
Tempt wild dogs to the blood of insolence.

The thing becomes vague.
There are mirrors dispelling
What would conform its studied
Rhythms and the quality of blue
It scatters toward what evening
It may contain.

I approach it as something supreme,
Made of words that have succeeded
In creating some passion, crumbling,
Sweeping through a nearly forgotten
Language.  I will attempt
To understand it as it deserves
To be understood.  I find myself
Only full of anxiety, only able
To write, only able to invite you here
For a brief time.  I clutch
At the structure as it becomes pure ash
And proves itself to be as real
As any dream, as any serious tale
Trying to tell both why and why
Its pale geometry burns everything
It touches.


 Shell Mandala



TWILIGHT

Deep burns begin to appear
On my arms.
There is a way they might be healed.
Do not leave me alone.

I live by enchantment.
A great bear guards my bed.
A couple dance on its headboard.
A mandala of shells graces my feet.
The light in the morning entertains
My windows to the East.
To the North only imagined trees.
I dare myself to live like this.
Such a cloth.  Such a great tempest.

I had a room on the edge
Of a garden for many years.

It stood before the Gates of Hell,
Filled with asphodel and the shadow
Of deer and filled itself
With globes of light and all the
Mirrors of music, with tigers
And a hand revealing sunsets
And sunrises and the many states
Of water.  But I do not remember
It well at all.  It was all like
The clear glass dreams employ
To keep everything that is non-changing
Away until the last moment,
So one might understand Paradise.

___________________

CHINESE SUITS

We were invited to the trial
But somehow the children got confused
Or were unable to handle any information
That came from the world outside
Their heads.  We were sorry for them.

The entire field became transparent.
There were guardians dressed in Chinese
Suits and carrying huge swords.
They probably wouldn’t have hurt
Anyone, but there was no way to be sure.

Headlights flooded the sides of the road
Near the bridge.  Even this far back
We could hear the tires squealing and
See the blue smoke.  The sound of metal
Crunching sounded like someone eating.

Reflections began popping back and forth
From the shields carried by the servants.
They had their own concerns and we were
Just as dreamers to them.  Whatever
We did, whatever we decided, would
Seem as nothing to them.  They gave
Us jobs to keep us busy.  The children
Sat and watched us as if they could learn something.



Reflection


A STORY IN STANZAS

Headline: “A crystal box filled with music, c. 1000 A.D.”

The sound would be lost
At once were the box opened.
It is impossible to record the music.
It seems to create an empathy
In the listener as a Paraclete would.

For each listener, called ‘voicers’
By those who study this event,
The experience of the music
Is significantly different.

This is known:  The music
Is always melodic, memorably
So.  Rhythm is patterned.
Certain passages repeat themselves,
Yet, this is extremely rare.

Oftentimes the music generates
Unusually abstract visual information,
But also occasional narrative, as in myth.

Animals, from insects to birds,
Mammals, reptiles, amphibians, seem
To hear these sounds with ease.
They oftentimes pay long attention to
The sound.  All have been seen moving
To the rhythms seemingly generated by it.

Some researchers believe particular
Mating behaviors in many species
Have been initiated or changed by
Exposure to this music.  Much more
Research is necessary to prove this.

It is said that people who have encountered
This phenomena have recorded their names
In a document upon doing so.  This document,
While testified to, has never been verified.

The box has moved frequently
Since its discovery.  It is liable to appear
Almost anywhere.  It has been seen and
Heard off the Australian Great Barrier Reef
As well as in the Himalayas and the jungles of
Peru, Southeast Asia and South America.

No one knows how the box comes to
Move or where it may appear.
Its appearance has always had the quality
Of a mystical event about it.
In the past seventy years it has been seen
Very infrequently and very briefly.

One other box was known and was opened.
It shattered immediately and caused great
Disturbances in the Earth’s
Magnetic fields and impressive light patterns
In the ion layers of the atmosphere.

Its existence is usually denied except
In poetry and certain fairy tales.

If you encounter this box, contact
Creatures that sing or listen to
Recreate your own experience
That others may know these songs.

____________________

BEING AS MANY AS LEAVES

Oh this is peaceful.
This light stays when all
Else fades.  It is a serious
Pursuit, worthless, yes,
Useless, oh certainly and I suppose
Even boring to some people,

Those ill on the world, drunk
On its ‘nobody’s a long time’,
Sentiment and that heritage
Of, ‘if anybody even attempts
To think deeply about something
They are the sick ones.’  And here
We are, driven toward a beautiful
But terrible forest full of dead
Souls unable to be serious about
Anything except the executioner
Returning to darkness and the murder
That goes on in this perfectly
Lovely world. 

Listen to them growling.
Let’s go get ourselves born
So we don’t have to deal with these
Things that feel darkness and ignorance.
Fury, boys, let’s give them fury, real FURY.

______________________

Today's LittleNip:

TOM KRYSS

Tom Kryss extended his hand
And burned his fingers on the stars.

“I did not realize they were so close,” he said.

“We are not,” the stars replied,
“Close at all.”

______________________

—Medusa


Late Autumn Woods





Friday, December 06, 2013

Straight From The Angels

Knot Hole
—Photo by Katy Brown, Davis



THINGS THE ANGELS TOLD ME
—James Lee Jobe, Davis

The light doesn't pay any attention to you.
Not even a little. The choice of what to be
was always yours, and still is. Even now.
The end, the beginning; those are concepts
hardly worth attention! The difference
is between having and being.
It is your choice. On this side,
our side, you don't have peace;
you are peace. You don't move
into the light; you are the light
or you're not, and remain dark.
Alone. Where you are,
you can see the light, and be warm,
but you're not a part of it.
You'll struggle and suffer,
but you get children, and that's worthy
of a struggle, you get a lover to hold,
you get a direction to move in, to grow,
and a name that is just for you.

______________________

AT THE TIME-CLOCK
—James Lee Jobe
 
The two angels met at the time clock; one was
punching out for the day, the other was punching
in for the night shift.

"Hi, Frank. How was our human today?"

"Hard day today, Mike. The boss was on his
ass all day. He had a flat going home and it was
over 100 out there. He's not getting any younger,
you know. He doesn't know it, of course, but I
made a tractor-trailer rig get off on the wrong exit
just so it wouldn't scare him while he was changing
the tire. I tried to cheer him up a little, too. Favorite
songs on the radio. I got his wife's angel to make
her think of meat loaf for dinner; he loves that."

"You're a good angel, Frank. I mean it. You really
try to help. I'm always proud to share somebody
with you."

"Same here, Mike. How many does this guy
make now?"

"Oh gee, I never counted. Over 50 I guess. But
they all had good lives. What's our guy doing now?"

"Watching the Angels game on TV. Hey, tomorrow
morning don't tell me what happens, ok? I'm
recording it."

"OK. I'm an Angels fan, too. Maybe I'll send him
a good dream later. Any ideas?"

"Fishing with his Dad when he was a boy. He
loves that one."

"Good idea, Frank.  I'm on it. See ya in the morning,
buddy."

"See ya, Mike. By the way, he's off tomorrow.
Make sure he doesn't forget and set the damn
alarm clock anyway. He could use the sleep."

"Got it."

______________________

LOVELY SUNSET TONIGHT; DID YOU SEE IT?
—James Lee Jobe

I will die one day
Right here in this valley.
Don't be sad.
The sky will slide open
Like a bathroom mirror
And kind angels
Will guide me home.
With an angel of God
To hold me
I will rise
Through golden light!
To you it may seem
Like just another beautiful
Valley sunset.
Lovely,
And excellent!

And you'll be right.



 Clothespins
—Photo by Katy Brown



ANGEL EXPECTATION
—B.Z. Niditch, Brookline, MA

Never ever expected
to visit a confounding earth
on roads of poets and prophets
changing sun and moon days
smiling away the tears
in the desert of a thousands songs
but knowing I've spoken to stars
under a full sack and sleigh of sky
of angels who visit by the humblest
doves, donkeys, roughcast caves
where time was reborn
tented under palms
this rascal Best poet
sleeping in the desert
with dried figs and dates
with centuries under him
in angel expectation.

____________________

A BEAT SEARCHES FOR AN ANGEL
—B.Z. Niditch

An angel moment may occur
at any reality moment
as in the abstract life
of the Russian icon painter,
next door
who is a renaissance guy
a man with sketches,
musical scores,carvings
as we uncover
fringes and fragments
of letters
and drawings
he leaves around for us.
At all times of night
through the tint doors
of the kitchen
light beams
at all hours,
an enigmatic figure,
the angels visit his icons
who creates for a Beat poet
abstract art and still life's.

____________________

MARATHON RUNNER
—B.Z. Niditch

If you had no flat feet
but the Angel Michael's wings
at your first marathon,
reflexive from miles
these cold breaths of love
would give you victory
as a scalloped shadow
along a long stretch
of many miles without defeat
in your marked confusion
under the sky breaking
echoes at the last mile
yet feeling a century's wound
by the angel's absence of distress
my belief to willingly compete.

____________________

WITHOUT AN ADDRESS
—B.Z. Niditch

A nightmare tried to dislodge me

under an open sky at peace

camping out by roads

of slippery paths

my soul stretched out

in the desert by migratory birds

my memory awoke 

to a majestic fertile light,

warm angel words slip away

filling the fields with breath

not alone but in the darkness

expecting a soothing lamb

among the juniper to feed me.


Old Equipment
—Photo by Katy Brown



BEYOND TIME


—B.Z. Niditch

You float near misty coves

as blossoming waters thin out

into a angelic transfixed light

and recede below waves

on this extended riverbed,

wishing to surface all night

hearing a familiar voice rise

across a guarded, scattered tide

holding onto bit of branch

in the flooded season

you reach over the undertow

stretching your arms

to imagine any rescue plan

in your swimming lessons

with unrelieved power

and miraculous wonder,

you head for shore

toward the marooned sandbar

tasting angel wings of  sunlight

warming your chilled back

grateful as you crouch

by the still rocky shoreline

holding your hands high

toward the advent sky.

____________________

AN INK DREAM ANGEL
—B.Z. Niditch

An unsigned student visa
left on the coffee table
by your aunt's opera glasses,
a sighting of Salinger
lost to all appearances
at first light,
grief that will come of nothing
her likeness waiting for the dawn
an owl stumbles on the wind
by two foreign bodies of water
near a red spotted sports car
wanting to survive
a joy ride to celebrate
years that trickle by
giving yourself sunshine
in a landscape's absence
on transparent miles of travel.

____________________

ANGEL SIGN
—B.Z. Niditch

Everyone has a pulse
or hunch to echo in miracles
for an angel sign
just like a domino of words
that he whispers to us,
interrogates language
passes on unspoken justice
from hidden pirated passports,
we seek a translation's rapture
for our poet's enlightenment
on the pale horizon.

___________________

Today's (Tomorrow's) LittleNip:

DECEMBER 7, 2013
—Michael Cluff, Corona, CA

Seventy-plus years is a long time.
At Pearl Harbor there was a crime,
the attack took away innocent lives,
made many a widow out of wives.
War is never a pretty game—
no matter the time, it remains the same.
Life is more important than nationalized dirt;
understanding diverse philosophies is better than inflicting hurt.
Be it Japan, Syria, North Korea or Afghanistan,
the places change but not the inflexible fate of man.

____________________

—Medusa


Garden Lighthouse
—Photo by Katy Brown
[A lighthouse is a kind of angel, yes?
Be sure to check Katy's photo album of 
Lake Huron on Medusa's Facebook page,
including the beautiful lighthouse that 
guards that coast!]





Thursday, December 05, 2013

Becoming Ogden Nash

Lights
—Photo by Katy Brown, Davis


OVERWHELMED: PARALLELS AT 72:52
—Michael Cluff, Corona

On the blue
of the not-nearly-
paid-off car,
the granules
from the dirt trail
between the freeway
and the semi-tossed green agriculture,
solider dust marks where my fingerprints
have left lies
of what my life really is,
not frozen in one night
of wild maelstroms
winds that identify
that the environment
and government
may conspire
to trace my route
the end of which I do not even know.
The border is not all
that far away
and the silly fence
in the desert
can't really mark
where one's existence should conclude
and the other restart anew.

_____________________

OVERWHELMED: DAY 10
—Michael Cluff

Purvis withheld the water
until the moon
passed overhead
magpies declared a day
of silence

and felicity returned
but only in mottled form
piebald in the depression
which marked
true from ersatz
relish from turgidity
and soap from abrasives.

_____________________

OVERWHELMED: DAY 16
—Michael Cluff

Adapting to the adopted
tears that tear out of me
and a dew will then say
adieu and the piece
of peace I still have
will beat the beets
I have heard the herd
always and in all ways
easily vetoes through
a vote vetoed by
the dog the doge will buy
sense the time since
barks became barques.

_____________________

OVERWHELMED: DAY 17
—Michael Cluff

Tropical fish do not
connect Roger to reality,
the one he needs truly
the touch-and-go type
of washes and pulses.
Maybe the hamster
bought yesterday will
bound over the missing
and the flow of water
in a small bath will do
what he has not tasted
or felt since the girl
left his dreams
and migrated into nightmares.

____________________

SIGN OF THE SIXTIES' TIMES: OVERWHELMED
—Michael Cluff

Behind closed doors
Mom et al. decided
Aunt Jane should be put away
hidden from visual consumption
no fault of her own
the evolution of things
just sometimes anticipated went
that needed way.

My sister Arabella
cried a bit
then took up with Barbie
and her beach house.
It was more apropos
according to the other relatives
especially Auntie Jo
and Mrs. Beasley.


Brick Wall
—Photo by Katy Brown



NED NEVER INTENDED TO DO THAT, OK?
—Richard Hansen, Sacramento

Wanda and her man Ned,
who has sex with her a lot
but isn’t particularly smart,
used to really enjoy painting bikini tops
on blank walls
but that was a while back
they’ve moved on to
blackboards and dry-erase white boards
then
poster-sized pieces of paper mounted on easels
and finally they started painting
on canvas because
their skills at it
justified the expense
and Ned
petitioned Wanda for permission
to accompany her to the museum
because he too wanted to
paint bikini tops on the nude models
appearing in the paintings displayed to the public
but Wanda
didn’t want Ned to look at bare breasts
BUT!  Check this:
Ned has never had any intention of doing that and
you can go ahead and ask
all his friends at the filling station
they’ll tell you
he was only gonna start painting after Wanda
blotted out the nipples
So now
Wanda insists
whenever they're in public
discussing bare breasts
that
they refer to them as
“sideways Witch's Hats”
or in some cases just
“A Witch’s Hat” if
the nude model in the painting is
lying on her back
and perhaps in a side profile where
you can only see one,
and one must take precautions!
so the surrounding children and weak men
won't discover
the topic of their conversation
and start flipping out while
Wanda and Ned conduct the ongoing debate
as to whether Ned will ever
see the insides of a museum     
 
_____________________

TOTALLY INVALUABLE ADVICE REMEMBERED
—Richard Hansen

Jake was baked and walking on the beach
with his mouth open looking up
when he woke up it was night
and he was by a crackling fire
he could only appreciate after numerous glasses of water
which got him thinking about what his dad always told him
about riding motorcycles in the old days
with no helmets, windshields or fairings

_____________________

Today's LittleNip:

After heavy philosophical hash
take a break and read,
become Ogden Nash


—Michael Cluff

____________________

—Medusa



Under the Bridge
—Photo by Katy Brown
[We have a new photo album on Medusa's Facebook page;
Autumn On Lake Huron by Katy Brown. Check it out!]




Wednesday, December 04, 2013

Angels With Many Faces

Blink
—Photo by Taylor Graham



BLINK AND YOU SEE AN ANGEL
—Taylor Graham, Placerville

They’ve found one in the wreckage of 9-11.
“Corrosion,” the skeptics say. “That’s
what happens to metal after all these years.”
Not an angel.
But just yesterday a crook-tail kitten
appeared, scattering papers with invisible
cat-wings, revising my poems.

______________________

MOMENT OF CLARITY
—Taylor Graham

People were listening
as an unseen wind passed through
the walls, his mouth forming
words, a difference in air pressure
as if mind were meniscus.

Believe the wind, he said,
sensing they already breathed it,

it was already gone again.
The east wind
that carries everything away
to bring this morning
fresh over the mountain.

_______________________

WHAT WORDS
—Taylor Graham

Everyone was trying to sell me something.
So I followed my dog down the street,
to the park; the lawn waiting for my dog to roll
in grass, the trees beckoning. Under oaks
I found acorns beyond counting, each gracefully
tapered, polished chestnut-brown. Each of them
free. Even the leafless fig danced in the wind,
scattering fruit like pennies. So much bounty
wishing to be transformed. I picked acorns
till my pockets were full. Acorns wishing to be
flung in brief parabolas between sky and water,
to root in dirt without the hype of words.

______________________

NIGHT-RAIN SAMISEN                                       
—Taylor Graham

This evening’s fog and drizzling rain in the dark.
In the dark
I’m following my Shepherd dogs. In the dark
            of a new moon that guards its coin
            behind clouds, I’m in unknown
            country, my own land. Nothing seems
            familiar, strange seeds are sown
            in the dark.

A ghost-tree bends its hanging limbs in the dark.
            In the dark
I stumble on a fallen branch, in the dark
            that tricks a traveler’s steps astray.
            My old dog plodding ahead,
            the new puppy rushes past him,
            is gone – where have my dogs led
            in the dark?

I listen for whatever moves in the dark.
            In the dark,
brief headlights on a distant road. In the dark
            a single plaintive call – wild goose
            that’s lost its mate. What’s to guide?
            Frog lament from the pond, the soft
fall of rain. Dog at my side
in the dark.



 Nicole Bui, reading at Sac. Poetry Center
with others from American River Review
Monday, Dec. 2
—Photo by Michelle Kunert, Sacramento



RILKE'S BIRTH (12/4/1875)
—B.Z. Niditch, Brookline, MA


By the cedar woodland
the foresters with wide eyes
mingle with the country secrets
of a thousand years,
more of them here
than blazing infant stars
in the open chimerical sky
by first light,
a boy hides his verses
glistened by the sunshine
near the Rhine,
Rilke taking his reverie
of imperishable words
no longer on blank sheets
with his first halo of language
hidden in his pocket of notes
covering vistas of childhood
concealing his once fractured wrist
swollen from all-night writing
Bohemian folk poems,
with the ringed school notebook
held in his unseen hand
of his winter gear and glove
your neighbor has created
from scratch from a magazine,
astonished by another early bird
eating out of his shadowy arm,
by a river fountain,
half-unconscious from excitement
of his first clandestine venture
outside his bedstead house
a graphic memory
held here in the silent snow
of a moisture white path
he stands frozen
in his pulsating wet tears
no one will understand,
a domino falls out
of his pea jacket,
spring wants to entice him
and weigh him down
to rest along the ditch waters
of the now unfortified river bank,
there is no flood tide,
or splashing children
here along willow trees
but the burdock countryside
makes even a slim body hungry
long for honey cake and strudel
by a warming wood stove.

_______________________

MEETING THE ANGEL
—Kevin Jones, Elk Grove

He came up behind her in a dark
Alley (Isn’t it always the way?),
Didn’t realize what she was
At first, then a Lauren Bacall
Voice: “Are you looking at
My wings or my ass?”  He didn’t
Have to respond.  “Yeah, I know,”
Angels are supposed to be these
Androgynous, genderless beings
Whose only purpose is to serve
And worship.  Thomas Aquinas
Never could get some things
Right.”  He gulped, hoped it
Sounded like a question.  “You
Don’t believe?  Here, take a look
At my navel.”  She caught him
Glancing farther down.  “You
Know, I have been lonely,
This detached assignment
On earth and all,” she smiled.
It was a wild, angelic night, but
He knew there would be hell
To pay sometime later.  “You
Got that right, mortal,” she said
Shaking out her wings.  “Move along
Now.  I got souls to save.  What?
One more question?  Be quick.”
“Are, are you from Montgomery?”
“Nope.  Chicago.  Why     
Do they always ask that?”

______________________

Our thanks to today's contributors, and a reminder to check out the calender on the blue board (under the green board) at the right of this column for area events, including the SPC Fundraiser tonight at the Millers' home and Verse on the Vine in Folsom with Shawn Pittard and Clemon Charles (host Shawn Pittard tells me she is moving to Portland—a loss to our community of a poet, a reading series host, and a dandy person!). Tomorrow night there is the tribute to Jose Montoya at CSUS, the final lecture in the SPC Fall Lectures Series at SPC, and David Lazar will be reading in Davis. Saturday there will be a book signing for Taylor Graham's new book in Placerville; and Sacramento's Laverne and Carol Frith will be reading in Crockett on Sunday. (Well, that's not exactly our area, but they are our poets and worth the trip down there.) Check out the details on the blue board.

______________________

Today's LittleNip:

PAINTING FLIGHT
—Taylor Graham

This
day
like wind
transparent—
a watercolor,
paper dissolved by time. Just light.


_____________________

—Medusa



Richard Barnhart reading at SPC last Monday
—Photo by Michelle Kunert



Tuesday, December 03, 2013

Like A Homing

—Poems and Photos by Joyce Odam, Sacramento


IMPERFECTION
After a painting by Kathrine Lemke Waste

A certain rage
like words upon a page—
ceramic blue—real peach,
the nothing we can reach.

Rumple the cloth around
the last confining sound
that rustles in the light
and makes the dark too tight

for self-hate or self-pride
revealing what we hide:
the art so poor
that it cannot endure;

the center’s dark surprise,
that wounds the opened eyes;
the canvas we destroy,
the tantrum we enjoy;

the efforts we abuse
for all the art we lose,
like words upon a page
torn by a certain rage.

____________________

A GLUT OF ANGELS

I enter the house of angels and
am at once given a halo to carry
with me as I browse and admire.
The power of love is everywhere
in elegance and simplicity
and I am in the influence. I am
reduced to surprise of humility
I want to soar through my own heart
like a reunion; I want my eyes
to preserve everything they see
in my symbolic need of angels.
The aisles narrow. . .angels balance
on shelves. . . crystal-bodied angels
sparkle from glass enclosures . . .
a cloy of angels fastens to the
walls. . .they overlap. . .they are
too many. . .they become one. . .
I am overwhelmed. . .I buy nothing. . .
I go out the door, still holding on
to my wire and glitter halo.
                        

(first pub. in CFCP Winning Poems
     Booklet, 1997 and Hayden’s 
     Poetry Review, 1997)

____________________

IF WE COULD TOUCH COLOR,

what would we feel—

what new sensation
for lack of feeling . . .

what does numbness know of touch,
what not to trust of the brightest red,
the hottest yellow, the saddest blue . . .

how could we not bruise
the softest pastel,
the subtle fading against all texture,
the quietness of white . . .

and how not be overwhelmed by
the heaviest of tones that are almost black,
that throb in backgrounds 
and cut against edges of completion—
as against frames . . .

why would we enter   
such a strange unknown,
except for
some need that is never satisfied:
the wanting to blend—
become part of that which thrills us . . .

(After "Another Spring Uncovered" 
by May Sarton)

______________________ 
 
IMPERFECT LOVE
(After “Love” by May Sarton)

It was only love, and I was its failed student,
always looking out the window
into some daydream . . .

I mistrusted it, thinking its edges over-
powered its center
that was too far away, and deep . . .

I struggled with it—wanting it to be
different—wanting it
to equal my perfect illusion of it . . .

I could never learn my way
through all its disappointments.
It was love—a changeling—ungraspable . . .

Even now, I call it—censure it—challenge it
again—willing to soften my terms—
if only it will love me past my harsh resistance . . .






THIS SIMILE… THESE SIMILES…

1.
Japanese Irises
Propped Against Stripped Wall :

Ruin against ruin ,
what will survive here ,

among words ,
broken into sentences

thrown against walls in little shouts
and whimperings . . .

how long will it take—life against death
—survival against destruction ?

Weeds or flowers in their own struggles
and surrender . . . Oh, that I can lose myself .

2.
Oh, that I should
turn against myself like that—
in such confusion and desire—
in all the ways of self-destruction.
Who will help me . . . ?

3.
Here we are hidden in white,
a surrender of mercy and fear—

that we will be found
trembling beyond description—

our own cries for help
that even we ignore .

4.
It is the whole of it—
the entire arrangement : words
on white page , the description
struggling to be known by any other way .

5.
layer
    over
        layer

crumple
    against
        smooth

tone
    under
        tone

of realization

6.
Petals :
sweet mouths of flowers
sweet eyes of flowers
innocent and loved

entering and entering
this harsh existence
of life and its welcome

oh, and oh, how fragile

7.
Sorrows :
Each sad little death bears such burdens
of regret . How can we bear them all ?
They haunt us : each fallen bird and
dying flower , given this small tribute of words

8.
Moiré—
the moiré of darkness,
lying in wait .

9.
Someone I Loved :   
Whose face is this ,
staring out of the darkness—
whose memoried face , eyes hidden,
mouth in a tight silence—
still not revealed through this dim memory ?

10.
To return
    is to go where . . . ?

It is you—
    this memory-world

so full of shreds
and blurs—its dark receding . 

          
(After Re-Arrangements: A Book
of Wall Flowers Photographed by 
Debra Heimerdinger, Text by Collette)

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TO WAKEN AN OLD MEMORY

Old love is
sheltered in the
brimming mind—
the long
ago
and the tempered now.
Rose-colored by time
how loyal it stays
to all that it
recalls.
It makes its own
conditions of give
and take—
old love that still belongs
to love—
the comfort of time
that endures
and knows no failure.

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WINTER BOREDOM
(Balboa, California, 1940s)

The small sea-house grew musty in winter
with its dark wood
and its just-so window shades,
pulled even.

All the tourist noise was gone,
and the days endured themselves,
and the nights,
and the sea rolled in and out of time
with a certain patience.

The quiet light seemed almost blue
when the day closed down
and the sea-sounds muffled against the air
like a lamentation.

The house would creak and brace itself
against whatever force
was set against it.

To live by the sea in winter
is a lonely waiting:
too cold to stroll by day—
too gray its colorless dimension.
I was too young to love it then.
That would come later.

Tonight I think of that small house
with a sweet remember;
the safe domestic hum
as I bided my time to be gone from there;
the quiet rustling of the rooms;
the restless way I stared out into the night
from the gaze-back window.

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Today's LittleNip:

OVERWHELMED

The esteemed poet stands in a marsh of
swirling words that settle around him
like a homing of white birds;
he can have his pick of them
but only stands there—
stunned to silence
by the sheer whiteness,
of the words—
blinded by them, even,
when he contemplates
loving one
more than another—
wanting to capture them, somehow,
in immortal poems, 
when all he can do is watch them
in their shining presence,
and become their poem.   

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—Medusa, with thanks to Joyce Odam, who will be undergoing hip surgery Dec. 12. Keep her in your thoughts!

Our new Seed of the Week is Angels, and don't forget to think metaphorically! (Poets do find it hard to take anything at face value.) When have angels (guardian or fallen or vengeful) popped into your life? Tell us about your take on them and send it to kathykieth@hotmail.com. No deadline on SOWs, either; maybe you're still in the midst of Overwhelmed...



Like a Homing of White Birds...




Monday, December 02, 2013

Don't Let The Cat Out...

—Photo by Michelle Kunert


IN MY DREAM

I supposedly woke with poems written upon my body,
   erotic love-poem passages superglued as pages to my
   arms' skin
   and I didn't know how any of it got there.
When I couldn't remove or peel it all off,
   I went into a doctor's office to complain
   but the doc there was mixing up fudge with comedian
   Ellen Degeneres
   and both laughed and joked about me...


—Michelle Kunert, Sacramento

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THANKSGIVING GUESTS
—Katy Brown, Davis

No one else seemed to notice the shadows
gathered around the table this year—
the youngsters, too busy showing-off
their skills with naming vegetables;
the adults, matching work-stories
like Icelandic bards after a monster-hunt.
No one else seemed to hear whispers
in the other room; fragments of conversation
about how alive we all seemed;
how good all the food looked this year.
Each of us around the full table
brought a dozen more to dinner—
those tag-alongs from remembered times;
unseated guests from old Thanksgivings.

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THANKSGETTING REVISITED
—Caschwa, Sacramento

The escape from brutal rulers
Took us across an unforgiving
Sea and left us ashore on a new
Continent with cravings for the
Experience of food and liberty
That was fresher than any that
We had left behind us

Our bad fortune was soon to
Turn better when a small band
Of native Indians treated us to
A culinary delight of several
Tasty and colorful menu items
Harvested from the surrounding
Forest land

Being hardy folk who created
Their own good fortune, we had
The foresight to treat the Indians
As if they were our servants
So that we could take full ownership
Of their land, crops, and methods
To benefit our own trading

But we gave to the Indians too, yes
Indeed gambling casinos offered
Measure for measure an equal variety
Of temptations and colors to satisfy
Any patron’s appetite; if one is looking
For sustenance, what more could one
Ask for?

Nowadays we celebrate Black Friday,
Duly named to honor those who turn a
Profit selling various items harvested
From the surrounding forest land. HURRY! 
The beautifully carved turkey is not going
Anywhere.  Go out right now and chase
That discount!

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FILTHY RICH
(Why I buy lotto tickets)
—Caschwa

 
I have worked all my adult life
Some of it very hard work
Sometimes holding down
Two jobs at once

Just to barely scrape by

Always a pawn
At the mercy of
Big money movers
Worldwide

Lust for crumbs to fall my way

My conscience is totally free
To win some money
Really, really big money
To be terribly, filthy rich

Must have more each minute of the day

And I would fit right in
With other rich folk
Who are presumed to be
Successful in all avenues of life

Trust the opinion of the one with the money

Forget that I am not particularly well informed
About topical matters of the day,
If you pay me for my thoughts
I would be happy to speak in public

Bust out of the shell and have lots to say

So what are we waiting for?
Line up those odds
And deal me my cards
I am more than ready to start

Dust of gold means mother lode not far away


—Photo by Michelle Kunert



STORE SANTA SAYS
—B.Z. Niditch, Brookline, MA

Store Santa says
on the public address system
"Shop until you drop,"
but Elizabeth Bishop
taught us to rest in words,
on life's experiences of nature
in reverie, in dances
from Brazil,
here on a lonely hill
in a Cambridge classroom
my friends remember your reading
yet I'm the only one
who asked her a question
mapping my early traffic
of this convalescent student
sick of being overwhelmed
by the November dread
of an outnumbered universe
wishing for more than
an adolescent loneliness,
as I walk in her footsteps
wishing to get out my voice
and no stranger to stars
denied by inns and a manger,
I'm pushing back the crowds
in the din of the mall
with my double-crossed gloves
to hide out on Black Friday
wishing today's Santa
would admit he was once
Saint Nicholas
delivering gifts to children.

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OVERWHELMED BY O'HARA
—B.Z. Niditch

Snowflakes cover
a New York's island face
hardly changed on the steps
as a midnight poet
expanding a sigh of silence
on a cold sober sidewalk,
up town from the alley
hears a sideman
playing riffs of jazz
from the top floor
and you, Frank O'Hara
walking home
from the Cedar Bar
sleepless, as long nights
tear into your month-old shirt
turning a trope
in dour expressions
toward the mirror
on your unmade bed
weeding the dictionary
in a sign of mourning
to find an obituary
for yourself
here on the sill
with snow kisses
by the window shutters
filled with dying flowers
wishing life
could enervate you
like your peers
without a venture
outside the words
weighing down
your shortened body
in the caught fire
of your younger days.

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TRAFFIC TENSION
—B.Z. Niditch

Nerves in perpetual motion
with an alto sax player
leaving the city
on his motorcycle
in the Big Apple
with a friendless lipsyncher
standing by the bus stop
dressed in black leather
now sitting on my lap
going to the club area
suddenly tiptoes away
in the middle of happy hour
I'm getting heat from other drivers
as she goes into the red convertible
next to mine,
my memory still returns
overwhelmed by fear
and loose tongue,
feeling like an unsung traveler
with a grievous sadness
alone with his topographic map.

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FAMILY TALK
—B.Z. Niditch

Thanksgiving
with ex-family talk
of which cousin
smokes or gets high
or just gets by or not
or who is always late
or will never marry
or who is always in overdrive,
who is a A positive
or A.D.H.D.
or who never changes
his or her glasses in public
who is this or that object
of affection
or subject of affectation
said without any artifice
laying in waiting
for gossip,
the noise saturates me
as I eat a Turkey leg
ready to beg for silence.

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OVERWHELMED BY BEAUTY
—B.Z. Niditch

Like young sorrowful Keats
short-winded yet amazed
at these English gardens
when others give short notice
to the splendor of silver birches
by bright apple and pear spills
under this morning light-year
we walk by your shadowy grave
of a Fall evanescent sun
with these wing-beat birds
fading echoes of voices
from grey herons
calling us from blue rocks
by once hidden waters
on a coastal island dawn
covering mesmerized waves
on this woodland shore
by burning imagination
your first love never fading
in a forlorn restlessness
drifting into melancholic letters
you compose for your girlfriend
in the tall green sawgrass
too shy for a cottage house visit
not minding the pale duration
from the coming red moons
just wishing for another day
to explore and embrace.

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Today's LittleNip:

IT USED TO BE SIMPLE
—Caschwa

Simple Simon metaphor
Square Knot on his way
To the Fair Trade

Said Simple Simon to the
Square Knot let me taste
Yogurt

Said Square Knot to
Simple Simon
Show me first your Euro

Said Simple Simon to
Square Knot, read this
2001 Green Paper on
Corporate Social Responsibility

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—Medusa



—Photo by Michelle Kunert







Sunday, December 01, 2013

Such A Caroling

Sebastopol Cemetery
—Photo by Cynthia Linville, Sacramento



AS WHEN SOME HUNGRY FLEDGLING HEARS AND SEES
—Vittoria da Colonna, 1490-1547

As when some hungry fledgling hears and sees
     His mother's wings beating around him, when
     She brings him nourishment, from which loving
     Both meal and her, he cheers up and rejoices,
And deep within the nest, chafes and worries
     With desire to follow her, even flying,
     And offers thanks with such a caroling
     His tongue seems loosed beyond it usual power;
So I, at times, when warm and living rays
     Come from the heavenly sun by which my heart
     Is fed, shine forth with such a lightening,
And I find my pen moves, urged on always
     By an inner love, as if it had no part
     In what I say: it is his praise I sing.


(trans. from the Italian by Barbara Howes)

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—Medusa